06_blue skies
This is an experiment in fiction inspired by a photograph where I was looking out a door window. It is also my way of grieving and knowing that when you lose someone here on earth, through death or other means, it is not the end. One day, I will see their face in heaven again, and that gives me the peace to let go.

I have no idea if I will finish this because once school starts my focus will be on work. But if you have any ideas, suggestions on how to improve upon this, I’d love to hear from you.

Also just realized my title sux. So if you can think of a new one, let me know.

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He held her hand and brought her to the room of deep blue.
She looked up,
and couldn’t stand,
her bottom gently caught
by a white velvet pumpkin seat.
She closed her eyes and was once again amazed by the breathing
as if a balloon
had taken the ache in her bones
skin
heart,
forever gone
forgotten.
She opened her eyes
and again breathed the deep blue
breathe deep sky blue.

“It is your favorite color. I remember when you were riding a car in on of the foreign lands you traveled.”

“You designed me this way. Thank you,” she wanted to be polite.

“Yet you have questions. Unhappiness.”

“I have nothing to be unhappy about. You blessed me with a good life. I had work. Laughter in my classroom. Friends. Travel. You. You are all I need,” she tried not to sound mechanical. She knew the right thing to do was to be grateful. No matter what. “I was never poor. Or exposed to war. I had no earthshaking problems.”

“Yet…”

She knew he could read her mind, her crumbled heart. And there was no place to hide. Under these vast deep blue skies. It was only him and her. Time didn’t exist.

“Pachimoo. Why did you allow the Other to destroy? If you were with me, with us, it wouldn’t have happened.” It was a complaint she held back for years, knowing that it was easier to be the perfect daughter, reciting the proper verses, skipping over the deep well of emotions she didn’t want to uncover.

“Tell me.”

“I have nothing to complain about. I always had something to eat. I was sent to the best schools. I traveled to many places. You blessed me.”

“Tell me.”

“You were there for me all the time. I never doubted your presence. I could see you. Hugging me. From here.”

“Yet…”

“It was difficult seeing the Other one, destroying, stealing the laughter off our tongues. Replacing them with groaning and longings unheard. It was difficult to see how people once hugged, loved, could turn their backs on each other and have stone cold hearts. Refusing to listen. Refusing to speak. And then there was the violence.”

He held her in his in his arms and she cried deep into his chest amidst deep blue.

She was afraid to blame him. She knew he was always good.

“All I wanted was a happy family. Why did it always escape?”

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